APRIL 2010

4/2/10 first nice day of spring

i was in waterbury yesterday.
from I-84 which runs through it like a river
it looked coastal, built into the hills.
and the churches and the train station were always big and far away.

on grand street if people were moving
they were moving slowly-
it made it seem like everyone was standing still
like the girl's outside of joe's tire, perched on their car in the parking lot
next to the mcdonald's where the two middle aged men sat in their
rusted out dodge charger, with their arms hanging out the window.

they had leathery skin that hung off them at their joins just a little-
like their dirty white t shirts and levi's.

it was warm enough to sweat at the bottom of your back.

you know when you let the car idle in a parking lot,
and then you realize you won't be leaving anytime soon, so you kill the engine?
yeah time started off crawling and then it learned to walk
and next thing i knew it could run faster than I could.

4/3/10 second nice day of spring

waking up was reason enough never to drink again.
i felt like i'd never be happy.

threw some trash in the dumpster at 10 talcott notch
and it smashed on the bottom next to a bag from wendy's.

heading home i'm thinking of changing

wish i could play catch with my dad today.
wish i could ride my bike today.
same clothes as yesterday, could have said the same thing yesterday.
maybe i'll turn 18 today.